I don't live in Pornokuteer anymore. I now live in Kolkata. Hence, I've been wondering if I should change the name of the blog. Make it more socially acceptable. No one has commented on the site itself but face to face they've been shocked at my choice of the title. The shock was much greater because I'm "not like that at all". What's that supposed to mean? What am I like?

I wish I knew. In fact, I wish many things and if wishes were horses.....

But I do wish I could write clever things. I admire those who write these wonderful blogs full of news, ideas, original thoughts and perceptive observations of what's going on in their lives and also about the world around them. I can't do that.

People tell me that I write well. But what's the use of writing well when I have nothing to write about? When I was on the project I had so much to write about -- I could bitch about my colleagues and the community. I could crib about the weather. I could write about the children.

But now I'm stuck in Kolkata. Nothing much happens on a daily basis. But my life is not boring either. Especially when I travel. After staying stuck to a village in Jharkhand, it now feels good to be moving around. I've been to Itanagar, Agartala and Hyderabad -- cities I had heard of but had no reason to visit. I hope I get to see more of this country.

It's strange how we attach ourselves to situations. We don't have to. But we do. The need to BELONG to someone, to a family, to a group, a country is so strong in us. Are there any "lone wolves" in this world. And if there are, is it a matter of choice or circumstances? Even renunciates, monks, yogis tend to either live in groups or create their own groups. Man is a definitely a gregarious animal.